Today feels really good, I literally sprung out of bed at 4:00 this morning. No cat alarm, with him licking my nose. I woke up before him. And it wasn't an anxiety written wake up. Just a genuine burst of energy first thing in the morning, which felt really really nice. One of the things I'm really looking forward to now is finding a great balance between corporate work, me work, exercise and people. There's a really nice balance in here somewhere, one that's not riddled with anxiety. One that feels really really nice. Like you're making progress on all fronts.

And with the corporate work. I'm going back into the Aldi head office today after a extended break over easter, plus two days. I'm looking forward to seeing colleagues and hopefully I'll find someone to go for a walk with at lunchtime.

I brought some new human weighing scales because I've got so fat over the past 3 months. They say the scales don't lie, and even if they do, it's a consistent lie. A measurement of where you are right now. Points in time and space. On this day, in this location I am carrying this much mass. To much mass.... I cant fit in my favourite waistcoats any more. I need to find the strength to start the carnivore diet. It's one way to lose weight really quickly. And I need to lose a stone. Really quickly. Summer is here. And if I go tops off, guns out. I don't want people to point and laugh at my belly. So I'm very grateful for my scales. They will give me the measurements I need to track my progress towards that summer body the everyone is waiting for.

Writing these journals everyday. It's not easy writing these, but I guess that's the point. It forces you to think. Think about your intentions. Think about what you're doing today. Think about how you want to feel. And then from a gratitude point of view, what are you grateful for? It's really interesting to force these questions. Especially something you're great at. This isn't a question we ask ourselves everyday but forcing the question makes us dig deep. Because there are many, many things we are amazing at. We just don't acknowledge them. So something I'm great at? Being persistent with this process because it pays off and always leaves. You feeling a little bit better after you've finished.